"Don't be too excited about something!" My mother always says or gives this expression if I am a bit uncontrolled of myself. I know. I know for real that it's an expression of love. To prevent me from a big disappointment and remind me that life is not ours. It is a gift, so we should stay calm and cool. As I am writing this, I couldn’t control my body. I am feeling weak and uncontrolled. It is a mixed feeling now. It’s a Goosebumps. It’s not because the scary thing or hearing a good news or even having a proposal. I am taking a deep breath. You know, it's a different vibe. A different one from my two previous application which both unsuccessful. This time will it ends like previous application? I remember the time when I was so confident to hear the good news but then there was no my name in the successful candidates list for NIDA Thailand Summer School. You know, I even paid Rp. 400.000 for sending the application via DHL. Poor me? Not really...