I thought he will always lift me up Or available For my grudge or useless comments of life For my needy of attention For my smart & sweet talk and I thought I deserve his deep affection I am left questioned of his motive Sometimes I felt (loved?) Sometimes I felt questioning I know logically non sense To feel all the feeling But it was real, cute, lifting, comforting, warm For me being self centred (I guess) and having little understanding and That overthinking That ruins things ... I don't like that take care at all Show me some effort or (am I even deserve that?)