Monday, June 13, 2016

Dream and Make it Happen

"Don't be too excited about something!"
My mother always says or gives this expression if I am a bit uncontrolled of myself. 
I know. I know for real that it's an expression of love. To prevent me from a big disappointment and remind me that life is not ours. It is a gift, so we should stay calm and cool. 

As I am writing this, I couldn’t control my body. I am feeling weak and uncontrolled. It is a mixed feeling now. It’s a Goosebumps.  It’s not because the scary thing or hearing a good news or even having a proposal. 

I am taking a deep breath.

You know, it's a different vibe. A different one from my two previous application which both unsuccessful. This time will it ends like previous application?

I remember the time when I was so confident to hear the good news but then there was no my name in the successful candidates list for NIDA Thailand Summer School. You know, I even paid Rp. 400.000 for sending the application via DHL.
Poor me? Not really. I realize that a satisfaction feeling that you completed what you began.

Let's face what is now.
What should I do? In the next following nights and days, I will daydreaming all the time. Even before the application was sent, I have dreamt about it.

Oh, dear God. Let this time be real. I have prepared all the time. Writing status and blog in English, . watching movies, reading  blogs, daydreaming.