...and I am still learning

Last night I was a bit busy did packing. I'll move to new dorm (kos kosan). The art of packing was about stumbling across the memories of things while putting those into boxes & bags. I thank God for the landlord's assistents (not the landlord) who are really good in taking care of things in the dorm. They were very good and kind. I pray for their health and welfare. Also there is one nice guy who always offers me a ride to campus if we happen to meet when he starts his car machine #kekdramadrama. Add caption

Pagi ini saya bangun pagi dan menelpon orang rumah. Untunglah, bulan ini rumah ramai. Adik saya bersama seorang temannya, sedang di rumah karena mengikuti Kerja Praktek di kabupaten tempat keluarga besar saya tinggal. Saya agak terkejut dengan isi pembicaraan si bapak. Dua tiga kali sudah mengarah ke soal menikah.  Ternyata semua orang tua sama 😄😄😄. Bukan apa-apa, selama seperempad abad lebih, beliau paling mendorong dan menasihati tentang belajar, bekerja dan berelasi. Kadang saya bingung, ketika sedang hangat-hangatnya teman-teman saya didorong untuk menikah atau paling tidak ada isi obrolan menyerempet ke situ, orang tua saya masih diam. Waktu itu, saya sih kepengen ditanyai.  Sebenarnya, beliau pernah bertanya ke sepupu, "si Ros sudah punya pacar kah?" Nah hari ini, beliau mulai jujur  soal perasaannya. Kami bercerita panjang lebar soal pencapaian dan lain-lain, yang kemudian sampai pada kesimpulan "Kami ini masih kurang di cucu...

Book for this month is an autobiography of an Australian author, published in 1995. The book's title is "Penny Dreadful- A woman view of the 1950s & 1960s by Penelope Nelson. As I am not a native, it's quite challenging to read this book. A lot of new vocabs of course, however I can catch the story.  I haven't finished the book yet, but I'm kind of like it because I find it interesting. The interesting part was about the author childhood with the chapter's title of Summerland. The sweetest thing was that her grandfather wrote a few poems about her granddaughter. The poems written in many special occasions of the grandfather and the family. I adore the grandfather who find a way to capture special days and memories in poems. She is lucky to have beautiful poems written by one of her  closest person. Well, that is the end of review for the summerland chapter. I would like to update some progress of my life as a student (just in case, some are curious, hh...

"We really are giving the best understanding toward our siblings. Sometimes they are just so annoying and  other times they are just so cute and sweet" I and my older brother have up and down relationship. We are not that close by calls or texts but honestly I do mention his name in every of my prayer. I don't know when he will realize the important of send texts or calls. May one day. So the thing is, he and my father had a conversation. Surprisingly, he talked to my father to set me up with someone or ask my uncle for help. He worried that I haven't married yet. Jokingly, my father said that of course he must settle first than me. He replied that it will be easy for him to meet someone, So just worry about me. Well, well, I do appreciate. It  was sweet of him. However, however let me meet someone as God's plans.

Cheers... I am so in peace right here, right now and I hope as I read this again, I'll be in peace too. Hope you guys alway be in peace too. Peacefull mind. Peaceful soul. Peaceful you. And if you are not, just in this very moment, take a deep breath and be grateful.

Halo September, Agustus yang penuh berkah telah usai. Awal baru untuk semua hal baru, setelah intropeksi panjang di Agustus yang mendewasakan. Meninggalkan hal-hal yang lama. I am ready for a new chapter. 365 hari lagi, semoga saya sudah ada pada tahap selanjutnya. Tahap di mana hidup yang sebenar-benarnya dimulai. Source :google images I would take the train to Hogwarts and end my days and nights take care of my research . I am excited to restart again my potion class and have my own table for my work. From now, lets sing the  school song of Hogwarts. Dumbledore said to choose a favorite tone and mine now is Gemu Fa Mire. (I don't think the song match with the tune, whatever!) Hogwarts, Hogwarts, Hoggy Warty Hogwarts, Teach us something please, Whether we be old and bald, Or young with scabby knees, Our heads could do with filling, With some interesting stuff, For now they're bare and full of air, Dead flies and bits of fluff, So teach us things worth knowi...

Beberapa waktu lalu saya baca buku Joko Pinurbo, "mari menunaikan ibadah puisi" "Ah.." (baca :semacam wow kalau liat sop buah di siang bolong) Saya tertahan sebentar hingga berhari-hari sebenarnya di judul "masa kecil"sambil mengenang anak kecil yang duduk dan jalan selalu bertiga-tiga.  Tertawa sendiri-sendiri kalau baca komik lucu, terus suka bergantian membaca komik rental-an, terus suka nangkring di salah satu kamar dan sembunyi-sembunyi baca cerpen Aneka Yess, kakaknya teman. Anak kecil bertiga-tiga itu, mama Reyl, Waktu itu hidup tidak sekompleks sekarang. Ketika hal paling menakutkan adalah PR matematika dan yang paling membahagiakan adalah saling pinjam komik dan makan bakso di pasar. Tidak sesederhana itu, bertahun kemudian.  "di sudut sepi, melangkahi hidup    sambil menangis sendiri-sendiri." Kami sekarang terpisah jarak, waktu dan bahkan seperti ada di dunia yang berbeda. Seingin-inginnya  mengerti kehidupan sahabat, say...

Hello, it's me, I was wondering If after all these years you'd like to meet to go over everything They say that time's supposed to heal, yeah But I ain't done much healing (Hello, Adele) Good bye July for being too nice and sweet to me. For me being a very patient woman in my difficult situation For me being a logical and cautions in my experiences For me being an acceptable one For me being a lady to let the past, to let you as you are now At least I said hello, Source:  imagefully ... I am a lucky girl  here.  I am grateful for my last semester, my roommate, my visitors, my decisions,my family. I trust myself to walk confidently in the next month, to  enthusiastically   work in the next semester.  Yay, mari kita sambut bulan baru Agustus ini yang penuh berkah. Agustus selalu spesial. Kenapa? Hari lahir saya ada di bulan Agustus. Walau sebenarnya sama aja sih. But, hey, don't take it for granted.  So how wa...

They will not tell you about their bad conditions. You should call  regularly to check on them.  I texted my father about their condition after days . The reply came soon and I was deeply sad. Soon after that, I called him. He said that he run into wood and his feet got wound. He ignored the wound and then it become worse. He said that it's OK, now because he got to see physician already. Too bad, he had to use the stick. My response was kind of angry. What the hell my father run without sandals? I said that he was asking to get that kind of sick. He was sorry  to say that he was not even thinking at that time. I could imagine that he was mad at the goats. Now I know this kind of expression. You are angry at someone, not because you hate them but because they are too precious to have such an accident. Because you really love them so that you angry with them. I am sad that I am not there to help them do errands or groceries or whatever- But today my brother a...

Source :google images  Semalam kami makan bakso Tanpa harga di menu 2 porsi bang Baso urat yang gede, tambahin satu ya, bang Semalam kami makan bakso Bakso urat di malam hampir rintik Dengan seribu kisah Sambil Menyesap dalam-dalam wangi saledri Semalam kami makan bakso Habiskan dulu mie Lalu biji biji bakso dengan kuah setengah Meretas tumpukan rindu pada kamu Semalam kami makan bakso 53.000,neng Eh??Sambil Menggenggam 50 ribuan Kurang 3000,. Ini sisa-sisa cerita semalam ketika saya dan roomate tiba-tiba kepengen makan bakso. Sekali naik angkot dari kosan. Kami hanya membawa 50K.  Saya membawa kartu  ATM. Menu disajikan tanpa harga, dan kami pun tidak malu bertanya. "Bang, yang ini berapa?" "32ribu" (mahal banget, padahal warungnya biasa aja ) "Yang ini bang?" "20ribu" "Ok, itu aja bang" "Bang, bakso urat yang gede tambahin satu ya, untuk yang seporsi" request roommate dengan esti...

source : google images Halo sahabat,  Kali ini mari kita bahas salah satu topik yang beberapa tahun terakhir ini saya hindari. Saya pikir, biarlah untuk saya renungkan sendiri, toh ini pribadi dan tidak ada hubungannya dengan siapa-siapa.  To make it short, now I want to talk about it.  PH,  pasangan hidup. Yup. Hidup berpasang-pasangan yang dari Tuhan. Topik ini sudah sering menjadi diskusi sejak hari-hari kuliah kami di asrama. Saya akrab dengan nasihat untuk mendoakan pasangan hidup yang dari Tuhan. PH itu sebaiknya di bawa dalam doa. Kemudian saya yang malu-malu menjawab, "ah, malu sama Tuhan"  Kak Rani yang waktu itu mendengar agak terkejut dengan jawaban saya. Saat ini juga saya kembali merenungkan jawaban saya itu. Apa sih? Malu-malu sama Tuhan. Toh, saya diciptakan Tuhan dan ngapain malu? Mungkin waktu itu, hubungan saya dengan Tuhan terlalu rutin. Rutin sehingga doa-doa hanyalah seperti rangkaian kalimat kosong tanpa makna. Hanya seran...

Today, January 16 2015 is my last day to become a full time employee. I just accept my contract as part time employee. Yeay! I will focus on my preparation to continue study though my salary, huaaa hiiks hiks As part of my reflection for my future. I have been thinking of becoming a consultant I want to be a freelance consultant or at least become owner of a public consultant.   Hopefully. I want to be an consultant's owner or at least become a freelance consultant. source: google images

sources: google images. For those underage Malam itu, sebuah sms masuk dari adik saya yang sedang kuliah di tahun keduanya. Namanya Wig, kelahiran 1995, adik kedua saya. Kira-kira begini isi smsnya : W : ka, kalau sa(saya) rokok bagaimana? Saya terdiam sebentar, membayangkan adik saya seperti pemuda kebanyakan yang belum berpenghasilan sendiri mengisap rokok dalam-dalam. Agak jengah juga. R :JANGAN DULU.KERJA, BELI PAKE UANG SENDIRI BARU ROKOK. KO(kau) LIAT BP (bapak) & US (kakak pertama) ADA ROKOK KAH? [Bapak dan kakak pertama saya tidak merokok] W:  [Kalem] Ok, hanya pendapat sa. Di saat yang sama, saya sadar anak di atas 17 tahun sudah punya pilihan sendiri. R: Tapi terserah kau, ko (kau)harusnya bisa tau mana yang paling baik untuk ko. Dari saya sih tidak setuju. W: Itu sudah, tapi saya bisa kendalikan. Tidak terus-terus. R: E sa malas [Sedih dan tidak mau tahu lagi. Sudahlah, biarkan saja] W: Sudah makan? Saya tidak membalas ..... 15 mnutes later W:tapi ...

It’s New Year! 2015 is on the way to be lived day by day. What an annoying morning!   Saw someone who was close enough to you posted on the social media the love dopy photos of them. You have said that is over between you and that one, but well then you gave long sighed. It stills a little, only a little old connection which is angry instead of love feeling. It is just a slight anger! Go, say good bye and things will be alright. He was the one who used to give a compliment about my achievements and he is and will still, you think. You wonder how to response to his compliments without deeply absorbed by old time memories. Not that much memories together but it means a lot. You might be still confuse about your feeling with him and one thing you know that you shall meet him one day, and after that you might be free. You hope that from now and in the future, you can see the couple without hard feeling but love and support from an old friend. And what is now?...

I am going to celebrate the New Year with prayers for the crew and passengers of the Air Asia QZ8501. My heart goes out with the family and friends who affected by the tragedy.     source: google image I believe all of you will have nice place with the One who Own life. May all your charms, kindness and good life stories will be forever support those who lost.  Saya sangat berharap agar tidak ada pertanyaan bodoh reporter kepada keluarga korban, seperti " Bagaimana perasaan bapak dan ibu ketika mendengar berita ini?" 

Well, 2014 will come to it ends. Thank you God for all your guidance till now. I am grateful for all the situations, heath, family,luck, friends and myself. I like what I have been experiencing in 2014. the Christmas tree in our office room. My friend who own that tree event doesn't celebrate the Christmas ;D. The big gift is fake, btw.   My contract as temporary worker will come to an end too in January 2015. I really enjoy the work and happy to be part of the team. The work environment is so lovely as well the team mates. They are awesome. I am sad to say that I can"t come back to my hometown right after I finish my contract like I have planned before. I must wait the announce of PK schedule ( one step to get closer to the  LPDP scholarship). It's horrible to wait until my name appear with the fixed schedule. I hope next week will clear.It's still wait for confirmation. Keep fighting for all scholarship hunters, let's your dream led you to better fut...

Tentang berproses.  Entah mengapa "berproses" adalah salah satu hal yang saya sukai. Hidup itu adalah rentetan aktivitas-aktivitas yang patut dihargai sebagai bagian dari proses. Dari yang tidak tahu menjadi tahu, dari yang salah menjadi benar, dari yang tidak sadar menjadi sadar, dari yang alay menjadi tidak alay. Setiap proses yang dilalui itu kemudian hanya bisa dibandingkan dari proses-proses sebelumnya. Untuk kasus "alay" adalah menyenangkan mengetahui bahwa setelah kita punya kesadaran bahwa kita telah "alay" maka berbahagialah kita satu tahap sudah lebih tinggi dari kehidupan kita sebelumnya. Congratulation, you are moving forward one step in life to the next phase! Namun bukan berarti kita tidak akan alay lagi. Setiap kita pasti akan selalu dalam masa-masa alay. Berkali-kali dan akan saya menyenangkan jika kesadaran akan ke"alay' an itu datang dan kita kemudian masuk ke satu tahap pendewasaan yang baru. Begitu seterusnya.

Well, things are getting better now. Jokowi's inauguration was the best part so far. Congratulation Mr. Joko Widodo, you are so inspiring! I just hope you can fight over "mama benteng" distraction. Hopefully, I can meet you one day! The interview session with LPDP panels was done abstractly (my answer, ohh, why I said that). I am waiting the result now, and wishing the good thing will happen.  (Pleaseee say "Amiiin") I will write about the interview session of LPDP after I get the result (whether I will pass or not) From some conversations I had with some friends about my perspectives, I am so thankful that I was asking their opinion. I shall consider their background also; their life and what is life in their head then decide what values should I consider as my new perspectives. And in line with Jokowi's third children, hopefully world will more kind to the "single" lady or man. That's all Keep our environment you...

Semalam saya masih teringat sama e book reader, setelah beberapa waktu berhasil memendam keinginan untuk punya. Saya tertarik dengan Kindle paperwhite milik Amazon yang agak murah dibanding seri kindle lainya karena saya juga tidak begitu membutuhkan banyak aplikasi. Sebenarnya yak, murah kindle nya tapi sayang tidak dijual di Indonesia. Bisa dapat kobo atau kindle dibawah satu juta. Kalau di www.tokoebookreader.com , harganya tentu saja lebih mahal. Mau bagaimana lagi, bea cukai dan shippingnya. Kalau punya duit, sebenarnya tidak masalah hahahaha beli lebih mahal. Namun keuangan saya memburuk, akibat membeli tiket pulang tiba-tiba. But worth it lah, ketemu keluarga :-D Kobo juga bagus tapi entah mengapa dari beberapa review, lebih bagus kindle.Namun kobo touch reader juga jadi incaran saya. Dulu saya malah mau Nook karena designnya. Kalau dihadiahkan, saya mah mau-mau saja, merek apa pun yang penting e-ink. Saya bukan maniak gadget tapi gadget yang satu ini lain. Khusus untuk m...

I hate myself when I found myself disappointed after I expected someone behave like I want which they were not.  I have known that things around not always under my control.  Just let it be, let it be not what I want it be