Thursday, December 19, 2013


Hi guys,

How is your week going? I hope it pretty smooth, but if not, just thinking that way. Like the wise people stated that it just depends on how we manage the feelings. It means that we can choose to have a happy day so we will satisfy with all things happened in that day and vice versa. I think happy day is not means that we have really good things happen but the bad as well.  It seems easy to just say it but when we give a try, that will be really a good thing you see all day long.

My goal for this week is not feel angry until the end of the year; I think not just me but some people who attended the Trinitas church on Sunday afternoon. Luckily, I am a forbearing person, so I change to something that I'll hard to endure, guess what?  Yup, I am nagging as I stare the computer screen after meet the other department. Also talks to my teammates about the people who seem don't understand about how important our cases are. I think that it is really not good. While the other team also hopes I understand their decision and wait patiently. Then after I talk over and over to my teammates and get my calmness back, I will suddenly realize that my response is kind of annoying and waste time. I know I should stop responding like that, better taking a deep breath and finding another way.

Ok, this is enough for today. Bye, good friends, Sorry for never take any blogwalking ;D

Here is the Korean song by IU and Seulong, nagging. I love the lyrics.

meori anin gaseumeuro haneun iyagi
niga sirta haedo an hal suga eomneun iyagi
geumanhaja geumanhaja
neoui jansoriman deullyeo


A story told by the heart, not the mind
Stories that I can't help but tell you even if you hate them
Let's stop, let's stop
I only hear your nagging

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Karyawan Punya Cerita

Tidak baik membicarakan keburukan orang (aka keburukan managemen perusahaan), lebih baik mencari lowongan baru.

Begitu satu kalimat yang saya dapat hari ini. Menampar dan menohok hati. Yah
Kemudian memberi ruang untuk bertanya, bagaimana caranya mengkondisikan hati dan pikiran untuk menanggalkan logika dan mengikuti alur atasan dengan berbagai pertimbangannya.
Juga, menyukseskan hari-hari tanpa amarah sebelum menyudahi perjalanan di 2013. Welcome the happiness project in 2014!

Banyak yang sedang dipertimbangkan sekarang. Cita-cita yang lama dibiarkan malah semakin mencari-cari perhatian. Juga tak ketinggalan keengganan akibat tergoda iman dengan kehidupan yang diberikan ibukota.

Hidup ada ditangan lo, Rosa.Bukan di siapa-siapa.

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Romantic Relationship

As a human, I have been facing the issues about romantic relationship which without planned this matter is always the important part of life as well as the career or even better than it. Feeling loved and to love someone is undefined feeling which we can feel happy, sad, anger at the same time.


My personal romantic love stories didn't turn like what I had read in the comics, Korean drama scenes except the single scenes on it, or the movie scenes. There are just parts of it, the feeling, symptoms, eyes, insomnia fever, and the smile which we spread all day, I am sure about it. I believe the movie makers or writers not just make up the love stories scenes. They did research by themselves from the others surround them or they were brave enough to show people how their love stories go. If there is over or out of logic, hell yeah, money makes everything seem entertain enough to be watched and the important thing that there are a few number of people love to watch it.


 I had involved in the several stories which part of it I am ashamed to tell or just to remember it.  Awww, how ashamed! I have known the kind of feeling since in elementary school, how young and naughty. Got my first letter in junior high school, it ended up read by friends all the way home without chance to keep it. The boy has married now.  I kept a letter by a nice young man from the other school. It was nice to know him by the way without chance to had a date. As the time went by, I had several crush to several attractive guys, but the most I remember there was someone I fallen into for years till my senior high school days. Many love stories show that people are not build a relationship with the one they are admired because it seems that they are far, far away. The relationship I had built with nice young guy, from a friend to be a boyfriend. The feeling those days were so up and down, the happiness and the painful at the same time.  How poor, officially we had the relationship just one month.  The unofficially was we were so close after the broke up, we were studying together both in a group and just two of us. He spent two or three hours in my home at the afternoon, I didn't count it, but it almost every night in our examination days. He said that, he mentioned our kind of relationship to be a good sample of health relationship to his fellow students, hahahaha, I doubt it.



It is enough to have a sweet flash back. My love stories are not like a fairy tale, though. I am sure of it, many of you may feel the same with me, right? This is universal feeling. As I am growing old day by day and so far, I am a kind of missing the feeling.  To love and to be loved by someone.   As we are standing in the crowded or seem so busy with all things, still the loneliness come deep inside our heart.  At the end of my reflection, I know that the things about life are depend on God's hand. He has planned everything and valued all the hard time we are going through this life which not run as we expected.  Experiences and relationship shape us to be what we are now, just let God's hand around.



Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Mirror of the year

This year not run as I want but of  course I have learnt so much about everything around myself, the confidence, the success as well as the failure. This three parts of my life become one of my blessed experience so far. I am in the middle of my twenties, the age that all called as mature. How grateful for that. Too many things to be improved as a pragmatist and a real human being. 

I am a shy one, sometimes but the fact that I am not interested with what I called silly conversation makes me the one who look shy. Hell yeah, that is not good sometimes. I mean people will more recognize you if you be a source of everything, an informant  apart from the fact that is true or just gossip. But  I am not interested doing the kind of  chit chat, I just shut my mouth up for the things I have known. Better look like you know nothing, of course it depends on the case. The important one or just the silly topic to look like have a great conversation. All I want to say here is as a human being, I must change myself to be better person, a chit chat may a start to a good connection and not only means you "kepo" but at the same time it means you care. God has taught us to be a care person for each other in our neighborhood, work and  relationship but I must remember, don't look like "kepo".  I had fun weekend a week ago and I heard my friend said that she just tired of being "actress" in her workplace, so tired to act. The lesson is be confident with who I am without counting how many people will recognize it as what we unexpected. 

I am so blessed with the job I've gotten so far, I have worked as a team and have experienced  different character of managers, two expats , the one who hired me was a British and now I am getting used with the new one, Indian.  I am so grateful that I can help my brother and I wish I can till he graduate. Now I am preparing for my life, big decision ahead with all the passion lie on my heart. I wanna choose something important after this year. My dream as a master student still in mind, now I am still in recollecting my spirit to reapply all scholarship applications again. I was failed this year but I will reapply again for the next year. It is all about how struggle you are, Rosa. The good thing is I am getting used to learn English as much as I can. My TOEFL score must better in 2014 to reapply. I wish I can. 

Last but not least, God has planned everything in his hand, my life, your life and the others. Keep praying and working with His hand around. 

In the end of the year
A self reflection 

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Happy Birthday dear Ansi

Happy birthday, dear Unse.
As I am writing this, I remember one warm afternoon when we walked around town and were talking about our future.
Remember? I am exactly forget what thing I want to do, but I am pretty sure that one of us want to be a mathematician or auditor. I wonder it was me or you, hahaha.
Such a bless to have a nice friend like you, a beautiful and confident one.
I wish all the good thing come around in every single of your path.
Happy birthday again, wish you stay healthy, wise and grow up every single day.
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away,
our inner self  is being renewed day by day.(2 Corinthians 4:16)