...and I am still learning

just when you about to fully free from those years of insecurity then one tears you out like you are nothing just a stone It hurts I guess it just accidentally to take the pain personally between those fake smiles and laughs feeling is not to be laughed not to be treated like nothing one can just say sorry I dont like you back and thats all for that insecurity kills just give one some time wait until time and spaces or memory lost or  disappear

Why you appear again in my dream Its clearly pictured We walked, the same path I guess, years ago It was wet road still We talked, exchanges stories We both happy We both laughed to the same jokes still Time flies I know you are happy and so do I I guess Nothing left anymore

Its been a while To feel this vulnerability To feel this unorganized mind To feel this butterflies Its been a while Say hello Say hi No Goodbye Its been a while To feel this naked To feel this exposed To feel this excitement Its been a while Say hello Say hi No Goodbye For I am a fragile soul and I deserve your gentle touch For I am a fragile soul and I deserve your wild love

Always that hunger I feel ashamed Deep down Like heavy rain I wish I could pour my tear I am too embarassed Wish one could read me Capture my eyes Hold my arm Read me

Lepas malam tanpa cuci muka Lepas dahaga,  mendaras syukur dan keluh sejenak Lalu diam-diam merasa cantik Meski bukan kamu yang bilang (Bandung, July 2016)